I'm not as good as you thought...

You've been saying me kind or soft-hearted...but I'm not that soft....
You've been saying that I'm man or macho....but I'm not that man or macho...as I just acted...
You've been saying I'm helpful...but I'm not so helpful...
All you said on me are not true as you saw but just the masks that i wore...
To attract your attention yet don't have guts to say it...
However feel kinda angry or jealos when see things I don't really like you to do it even I said I didn't care so....
I'm kinda bad

who should i rely???

feel empty, yet lonely, wanna get a warm hug?? but who's willing giv me a hug??
yet, no one...beg for a shoulder let me rely though i'm a male...but can't i sometime childish?? let me rely on the shoulder?? who should i rely??...raining...

As long you're happy...

I admit that I have been being coward...I admit that I have been being unconfident either about myself or other issues...I admit that I have been using excuses to keep myself out of troubles without thinking others' feelings...I admit that most probably I would keep myself like this without making any changes...But no matter what, I would try to do my best using my own thoughts even you would say I have been thinking too much or being selfish but afterall all I want is as long you're happy...

can it lead??

these days, i can't stop thinking of begining a new chapter of the saga...the chapter that can break the chain of being single...i tried...but seems like whether it will be a tough opening or another curse of chain..

one have done but the other one....

hahaha...finally i'd done my 1st pas report at the last sunday...i don't think there will much problems about that ....but!!but but but but but!!!but since that, i kept thinking about the other pas...it's about the fnb...dang..i didn't handle any event during fnb training..all i'd done was just doing the jobs according to the roasters...hmph...wish i can have some ideas to do it in these few days...

quite tired living in the rumors' world...

just wanna be a normal guy...really a normal one...but don't know if i was born to big action or what..somehow seems like wherever i went or exist....rumors will appear around my surroundings afterwards...usually they're all about who i like or what..hell...c'mon, i just be friends with them but did i really looks like wanna chase after them...speechless..

headache...

without noticing, it's been 18 of march..next friday will be my last day of training.
so many things flow to my mind and "hurp!!" i can't breath!! why?!
cause so many things i need to think already...
1. the certificate of training-remember the time i requested for training at the hotel, the HR department said that they'll give certificate once i'm done with it. however, due to few incidents happened during my training there, i can't really believe on the HR....darn..if they don't give me certicate later, it doesn't really matter but just that i feel like making a "loss" business...
2. the place of staying when i back to college-well, since i checked out the accommodation of college as i needed to go for training last time, i don't really have any idea about where shall i stay after training and when i back to college...if i request for college's accommodation again, sure they don't have many problems to me but it's just that kinda troublesome cause i don't really know where will i have my 2nd training and other "blah blah" factors...."sigh.."
what should i do...T.T