not meant to be...

lately, due to some observations on some occurrences, it seems like even we're together later, we're not meant to be so; we're belonged to different paths; though don't really want to admit it yet it's true. different backgrounds, interests, lifestyle and other factors of us have been the facts to support the truth.it's kind of hurt yet feel that if we're together, most probably there will be more sufferings. you may be too complex while I may be too naive...try my best, escaping from the case of continuing the feels on you...

when you

when you're sad, i'm sad, figuring the reason that made your tears drop yet if I'm the one who made it then i would hate my powerless; when you're joy, i'm joy, figuring the reason that made you happy yet if I'm who the one made u happy then it would be my pleasures; when you're mad, i'm mad, figuring the reason that made u mad yet if I'm the one who made it then I really sorry due to my unwelcomed behaviours; my flow of feelings follow yours....

as like don't even have a chance for me

till now, still, seems like you have feels on the one i don't know...
i guessed, i tried, still, kinda failed....no matter how it seems like, still the reality won't far away...kinda run out of idea to get your heart with me...well well...speechless...

As long you're yourself

It's doesn't matter you have the worst or best part, as long you're yourself..
Be yourself that you feel comfortable...If the someone really love you, he or she won't change his or her heart on you and will love the all of you..
There's no necessary for you to change by forces but by volunteer.
;-) to all who want to change for others...

it has been daily activity

first, the objective was just want to know more about you so look on the blog;
however, day by day, maybe..just maybe also because I was too free alone at the room, the survey on your blog started. everyday, whenever i wake up or back from college, or when I'm free, it seems like the survey on the blog has been my daily activity..feel that I'm in another world when I look at the articles at the blog...the emotions follow the flow of blog...what've happened to me???why'd I feel like my life cant goes on without concerning you??dang!

Why

why there's always others in our chattings? why did I feel like you wanna me with the other? you know what? actaully I just wanna be with you~ (though I may quite annoying...and bullshitting) but...why I can't stop think about you? dang! why why why~ why why why I'm acting like this? why why why~ why why why~I'm supposed not to beiing like this~~ oh~feel like the wedding dress must be wore by you~ yeah!! hurting...thinking....wondering....hoping.....speechless~~ music please~~~ save my life!!! oh!

you're my heartbreaker; seems we're not in same road..

Seems I've put too much heart on ya, making you frustrated;
Asking ya too mucha questions, ya' feeling annoying;
so I I I have just to leave you...leave you...no more put my heart on you~
coz ya my heart heart heart breaker~~coz ya my heart heart heart heart breaker~ no way...no way...for me to continue this way...
Seems we are in the same road, as also I've thinking much also, why not stop what I've done? now I'm drowning too deep..oh` no~heart heart heart~ heart heart heart`breaker...

wanna break or not??

feeling wanna break my chain!!!getting frustrated of being chained by single but hell!! wondering outside there there will be too many heartbreaker?? dang...what should I do? am I too full of desperation?? or is it the time for me to break the chain?? should I break or just keep going as normal...headache....someone please unchain me..

seems like the chain unbreakable...

when i woke up, i found that my eyes were full of tears...wondering why feeling so sad though the dream that appeared while i slept was not concerning on me either..barely remembered the people in the dream seems like no one i know yet they suddenly fell into a saddy incident..sort of leaving each other unwillingly...
after washing my face, i found that my feeling was not same as usual...feeling sad...guess i'm thinking too much...yet kinda feel that the chain of mine can't be broken so simply by just starting new chapter though didn't start it at all...who called myself as a chicken..ha..haha...

I'm not as good as you thought...

You've been saying me kind or soft-hearted...but I'm not that soft....
You've been saying that I'm man or macho....but I'm not that man or macho...as I just acted...
You've been saying I'm helpful...but I'm not so helpful...
All you said on me are not true as you saw but just the masks that i wore...
To attract your attention yet don't have guts to say it...
However feel kinda angry or jealos when see things I don't really like you to do it even I said I didn't care so....
I'm kinda bad

who should i rely???

feel empty, yet lonely, wanna get a warm hug?? but who's willing giv me a hug??
yet, no one...beg for a shoulder let me rely though i'm a male...but can't i sometime childish?? let me rely on the shoulder?? who should i rely??...raining...

As long you're happy...

I admit that I have been being coward...I admit that I have been being unconfident either about myself or other issues...I admit that I have been using excuses to keep myself out of troubles without thinking others' feelings...I admit that most probably I would keep myself like this without making any changes...But no matter what, I would try to do my best using my own thoughts even you would say I have been thinking too much or being selfish but afterall all I want is as long you're happy...

can it lead??

these days, i can't stop thinking of begining a new chapter of the saga...the chapter that can break the chain of being single...i tried...but seems like whether it will be a tough opening or another curse of chain..