however you feel, that will be my feel as well...

it's raining season lately. nearly rain coming once every two or three days. i like the rain...however, you have been emotional lately...full of sadness, stress, unsecure....
these made me feel bad...low mood and morality...
why??? you didn't say the reasons out...just because we are only friends???
but please, at least say it out...i think that will make you feeling better...

about two weeks more....

about two weeks more then ends my term 3....like what most of my groupmates saying...feel like learnt nothing... and the training time being nearer..feel very nervous and hope that that time will be going smooth..these days kinda busying with the assignments...of course, the accounting i think is the only course i may fail as well..maybe the problems came from lecturer or myself or both of the issues... to me, either the lecturer explaining the course too fast until i'm blur or i feel that it is too complicated this term....till now, still, don't even know what are the components of this subject at all....so how?? waiting to die??? i don't like this but last minute's CPR help?? guess won't as well but for now..i think ot's better than i never try...please let me pass it..please...T.T

cant take my eyes and thoughts off her??

wondering why....feel like these days, can't take my notices out of someone...
even after back from college, her image is still clear in my mind...
darn...kinda hate of myself...don't have the defense or what against this kind of matter...
come on, it's mostly a normal friendship treats from her what...why should i thinking too much...
even lately my 1st thing to do with my laptop is keep looking on her blog, see whether if she updated anything or wrote what her feels...am i too bored until got this kind of feeling? if that's so, no way!! that won't come with any result in the future...
after all, i don't think i have any characteristics to be liked by someone or she will like me or what....
please..please get it away from me..it's just my "too much thoughts"...
sweet time won't approach me either....

Disqualified from falling in love

I found that I'm 99.9% disqualified from falling in love:
1. I'm not generous enough to see the one I love having moments with whoever even chit-chat (means easily get jealous)
2. Unstable mood (maybe will hurt the one I love in future no matter phisically or psychologically)
3. Too calculative (hopes for results after giving the efforts)
4. Traditional thoughts (e.g. too macho)
5. No confident in myself
6. Unsteady behaviour (not mature enough I guess)
7. Don't know how to express the real thoughts and romantic??....Or maybe don't like to show the romantic side??
Guess these are all the points that conclude me as disqualified from falling in love...

Maybe...

Guess maybe I'm too sensitive or what....these days feeling angry or emo so easily...
Maybe I'm the one who actually changing?
Maybe I'm full of stress?
Feel kinda f*ck up of myself...
Guess I'm the one who was wrong from the begining....
Maybe I have no qualification at all...
Please...those who know me...no matter you like me or hate me or still think me as friend...
Please tell me...
Have i changed? Is it either my behaviour or attitude problem?
Or maybe...actually I'm a mad person....
Sigh...

The most beautiful thing.."Smile"

Of course, we have to admit that there are many things like buildings, natural scenes are beautiful. But I bet most of us noticed that a smile is the most beautiful thing we can ever see in our life which free of cost and with sincere. Like if when we having bad moments, we have a walk at somewhere like playground or what, I bet you'll feel much better if you see people smiling at you but not laughing too over like criticizing. Especially the smiles from our beloved ones, no matter he or she is your special boyfriend or girlfriends or they are your friends or family members, you'll find that you're feeling happy as well. If we are not seeing beautiful things, why do we feel happy then? Can you say that you're feeling good when you looking disgusting scenes like vomiting? I guess most of us won't say it...Thus, why should not we start to smile from now on? A sincere one.^v^ So we can see the most beautiful things everytime and everywhere without going anywhere or paying..hehe..

Just go on...

There's no way one can be a perfect person. If he or she does so, I think there's something wrong..hehe....As we were born to this world, we have to learn to be hated and loved. This is because people have their own "tastes". Like the food, there must be some of the food we don't like. Thus, don't stop when having the bad moments as long you do not feel sorry on yourself and also your beloved ones. Just keep going, there's always rainbow and sunshine after the rain. Also, I guess this is what a life is, which happiness, sadness and so on occur...
However, when there's more hatred than being loved, one has to start thinking "why". I guess nobody really enjoyed being hatred than being loved since that will be suffering.

迷路了。。。

或许还年少，或许其实不了解自己，又或许其实花心；才二十岁，已对不知几位女孩心动。。
是因为她们的外表？内在？？ 还是我那爱想太多的脑袋对我作怪？？？每一次的心动让我在寻找“真正的她”的路上迷了路。。到底真爱是什么？ 又怎样知道那个“她”就是你命中注定的“她”？
脑海中，被这些疑问淹没。。头痛，更喘不过气来。。想不去想这些事情，却不管看不看到那些女孩，心动依然不断，疑问不停涌进脑里。。
谁可以带我离开这迷宫？也看清与分辨这些心动？？

Something has happened..

these days, deep in my heart, i felt something...it felt like a wave, not strong but smooth and familiar and kept splashing at the wall of my heart...wondering why?
...darn..please, don't tell me it is 'it'...
if then it is the 'it', why did it happen? because of someone??
=.=..no..don't ....it's quite hard to believe if the someone is she..cause even myself also not sure about if she is the 'she'...guess all of you who reading this will feel confusing right? since the identity of her is still in mystery...
as for me an author, I'm also being confuse also..since if the she is another 'she' or blah blah...
whatever, just hope that it's just like the animals in spring, you know, those in short term like some people said, a puppy love...
hope that it will calm down soon..as for me, I also think that it's not the time yet..