time..thoughts...

time passes without noticing us or our notices. just quite a moment ago, I'm still a newbie in college that knowing nothing and quite a distance with others. though, by outlook, you might think I'm not as "distance" as i mentioned, but deeply in heart, for me, it was. and now, about three days to november and I hardly believe that it's already mid of term 3. my group mates are not acting as "strangers" before but being more open. well, honestly, I don't really know if I like it or not but whatever, it had been happened. and I think it's impossible for someone to keep himself or herself the same as before. maybe this is the growth in life. well, just hope that the relationships last forever even after graduate in few terms later. though it's too early to say it but who knows, time passes until sometimes we can't even "catch" it..hope can understand what I'm trying to say. anyway, for me, the occurences of unhappiness and toughness do not really matter as they are all memoriable experience to us being more mature. thus, no matter we don't like the things or people, maybe we don't really accept them in sincere but at least try keep it in balance...

erm..syok!

ever since I was born when 1990...and today, I have my 1st ride with my friend, very syok! Don't really remember if I had ride a bike before by my relatives or family members or not but just now, after I came to study, I had a ride which my friend gave me for a really 1st time. in begining, I felt quite scare, nervous and wondering...but then, as wind flowed through, wao~felt relieved and happy^^ maybe you all can find a time to try though nowadays not many people like to ride a bike now;-p hehe

yes!!

oh yes!! I have no worry about my industrial training of this term already!! you know what? I can have my new year celebration in my hometown, means that I'll have my training there as well^^ as my application had been accepted by the hotel;-) sides, now just waiting for the moment when I can go to settle my accomodation deposit things since I'm going to end my contract earlier. so guys, hope can meet ya up when chinese new year~

can't wait already!!

it's term 3 of my college life dy, and last this week had been dealing with my 1st training replacement stuffs. i chose a hotel of my hometown as my 1st training place as coincidentally that moment is also chinese new year. so what i need to wonder about? just decide the hotel in my hometown so i can get angpao;-) however, the result of approval from the hotel is still unknown.:-( hopefully they approve it so i can go back my hometown sides having my training. wonder if is it because of the desperation, i felt like i have so much motivation these days. also, hope that this motivation can last longer^^

送给你的。。

我不闻不问，不代表我不在乎； 我表现冷淡，是怕自己太受伤；
我举止粗俗，是不让你知我心；我自卑懦弱，明白自己不配你；
我开不了口，是还不明白自己；原谅我所作， 愿你快乐也有天。

我的心声

突然觉得一些歌贴近我心。。
聲音突然哽咽 也說不出心意
淚水慢慢堆積 失去行走能力
視線里 圈住已走遠的你
無力挽留 我的呼喊
已經淹沒在結局里
心已經被撕碎 散在空氣里飛
像花朵已枯萎 無法再次收回
從沒有 讓你感覺到快樂
原諒我心中 瘋狂的執著
不要回頭看我 不要戀戀不舍
跑著離開我吧 以后好好過吧
眼前 你越來越遠
騙自己 讓你更遠一點
這么遲鈍的我 可能有點懦弱
讓你選擇逃脫 也許這樣沒錯
忘記所有經過 寧愿在痛苦中受折磨
要把回憶 慢慢的遺落 by 歌名：面具(中文版)--安七炫

[給我一首歌的時間]
如果你想忘記我也能失憶
把故事聽到最后才說再見
你送我的眼淚 讓它留在雨天
越過你劃的線 我定了勇氣的終點

[手放開]
不能給你未來我還你現在
安靜結束也是另一種對待
當眼淚留下來
傷已超載
分開也是另一種明白
我給你最后的疼愛是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋
最后的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月臺有人走有人來
我的心是一個站牌
寫著等待

there's no need to care much about it...

you may know i got a feeling on you but you didn't have....it's doesn't matter as I myself actually still wondering in the maze of searching the answer of true love...eventhough sometimes wondering that actually everyone we concern, being with now or before, we ourselves put our hearts on them. just that after breakup or unhappiness, most of us said that was just playing or not true or blah blah blah...
therefore, after my own long winded above, just wanna tell that go your own road that you will happy.....Sides, I'm not the kind that will compete with other when the one I got the feel about is happy with him especially.

AT LAST...however.........

At last, she has found her port where she can always rely, rest, share everything and so on. And I might no longer to worry things that i had been worried so long. Not like to say as a burden but somehow I feel relieved. However, when i knew about it, I'm still feeling sad if not wrong. Why I said "if not wrong"? Don't know since when, I felt like starting being a living being without much feelings but hopefully I thought too much.
Well, lastly, hope she will be happy forever and always.
Me? I guess I'll just wait the time comes...Don't feel like to think or put too much effort about it as it only makes me headache or starting to think too much again.
Afterall, I guess I have done quite well as a good friend for her in these years [not sure if she has thought me as her good friend or just an ordinary friend;-)]

Long time no write..

It's been nearly two months since my last posts. and finally at here, i came out a bit ideas about what im going to write.
As a college student, I'm in term 3 already and hardly imagine that two months ago I'm still term 2. actually, the duration of each term is about two and the half months. which means after december, I'm going for industrial training.
about the training place, I decided to go to my hometown's hotel since term 2. however, afterall, i did'nt like handworking or peperworks, means that i didn't like writing a formal letter as well. but in order to apply to have my training there, i guess i have no idea besides requesting the adress and also the email of the hotel from my family there in order to send my letter to them. if not, i'll have my training at where am i now--selangor n kuala lumpur.
i bet there would be many difficulties if i have my training here like transportation and place to stay. but for my hometown, i will just stay at my home and drive to the hotel for training.
sides, the moment my industrial training has also chinese new year then i can still celebrate with my family and some friends.
hopefully i can have a courage to get the information from career centre and send a formal letter by email as soon as possible for effective workout...